I am but conflicted. Too proud and prejudged to form a proper opinion. I know not what I want; not what I need.

I've gone through a lot of emotions lately.

I am severely confused. A tad under the weather.

But things will be changing in my life shortly.

I'm going to start ignoring the past.

I'm been watching far too much Pride and Prejudice miniseries. Now to watch more!

I'm exhausted. But I really want to blog about tonight. I might be getting sick. I lost my iPod touch. FML. But that's not the point of this entry.

Tonight was...different. I saw someone I haven't seen in...a year and a half? It was surreal. And I'm not sure how things went down.

I'm not sure how much of myself has been affected by this person in the years I've known him. I'm not sure if I have been affected. But I probably have. So has he.

It was long, long ramble by two people. We said the same things. We thought the same things. To say that we still know each other extremely well would be a lie. But we sure are alike.

Here's to:

• Hanging out in an old Lexus
• Being awkward online after meeting
• Denying things that might've happened
• Arrogance and banter and bragging
• Drawing on people
• Being myself.

Yeah, tonight was really weird. I'm really tired. This post is shit, right? Don't worry about it.

There will be around twenty pictures on facebook by Sunday that sum up the night perfectly.

Drama Queen.

My brother has turned into a drama queen. Honestly, my mom was complaining how he seems like he's PMSing 24/7, not me. I'm the female twin here!

And then there's the girl issue. He liked a girl for a while. No biggie, she was nice. And then out of the blue...another one likes him. One who is terrible. Especially for someone's first girlfriend.

You know the whole overprotective older brother cliche? Well, I've become the overprotective older (by 33 minutes) sister. Everyone know that this girl is a ball-busting party girl. She cheated on her last boyfriend four times. That's a little ridiculous.

Everyone has been telling him to be smart, and he just won't listen. He doesn't know her as well as myself and several of our friends. It's just a really bad idea.

What can I say? Love must really be blind.

I Actually Managed to Keep a Resolution

So, by this time my new year's resolutions would be ignored, thrown away in a corner by now. That is, if I even bothered to try a resolution that particular year.

I actually have kept one so far. I'm proud of myself. I did something that actually defies my natural laziness. So anyways...the numbers on the scale now read ten pounds lighter.

But I have more energy. And my clothes fit better. Well, except for my pants which are getting too big...

But anyways...yay!