I focus on depression too much.  But the reality is that it seems all around me.  I can relate to others who have it.  But they can also bring me down.

I found out that a girl in my class has been going through a similar process as me.  She ultimately ended a friendship, just as I once ended a relationship.

There's the old saying that boys and girls cannot be just friends.  But that's not what I wonder anymore.  I wonder if I can be close with someone else who has depression and not become depressed myself.

I feel like I'm actually more functional than many of the people I have met.  Which is weird...I'm a wreck.  If I have a friend that is going through a tough time, I'm falling with them.

Depression is like a disease.  Easy to spread, difficult to get rid of.

I miss Ibsen.

Off the Addiction

I am going computer free for the next couple weeks. Mostly because I have camp, but also because I'm sick of it. I'm on it too much. Like, way too much.

I have loved ones all coming in on Saturday, and a ton of packing and great books and a brother coming home who will desire the computer anyways.

So buh bye. I'm hoping my withdrawal symptoms will be minimal.

My Obsessions

I'm an overthinker, an overanalyzer, whatever you want to call it. So I gain obsessions easily. Unfortunately, getting rid of them doesn't always come easily. But I want to list some out, just so I can figure out how crazy I am. Here's the Graveyard of Obsessions (with some zombies).

• Assorted songs:The particular one comes and goes, but normally it's all I listen to for a couple weeks
• Twilight:wasn't (almost)everyone?
• books:duh
• Chocolate:especially Ghiradelli Dark Chocolate Raspberry whatever...YUM!
• Falling in love
• Falling out of love
• Facebook
• Myspace:in seventh grade...mhm. Don't ask, it's just creepy now.
• Gilmore Girls: Yes, I aspire to be like television characters. Which partially leads me to my next obssession, since it started out as Rory's...
• Finding the perfect college:I want the perfect college. I must be crazy, but I like Novi most of the time, my school, my friends, my life. I want to make sure college is just as good, preferably better and without rah rah girls and football players
• Getting into perfect college:That's why I make a point to read all those promotional letters and emails.
• Fifth grade: This is the grade where several things when incorrigibly wrong. It's the root of the two year pattern, the depression, the college obsession. Screw Freud, I did my own psychoanalyzation.

I have a QB tournament tomorrow. It show be fun, and awesome and all that cool stuff. But I should probably go to bed so I don't pass out in the middle of it.